I loved reading this one. Specially the DIE part. What you call exploration i call curiosity. And i have been thinking about positive curious and negative curious these days, about how when we hit rock bottom, we start looking into the abyss, thinking what's the worse that could come, and I related it with the intention part of your piece
I totally see you relating to this. I think we both experience recursive frustration because we try so fucking hard sometimes. I think the answer in those cases is to let go and let be. Try hard later. 😘
So I started the damned thing (your piece) and loyalty brought me here.
I felt like you ran at full speed, deliberately inside a metal labirynth, in metal walls just big enough for you to run contained, above, below, and on both sides. A natural light was drawing you forward but did not stop you from hitting the ceiling and the walls, to fall, get up and hit something on your way once more, repeatedly.
I did not have to look for an emotion because loyalty has it all, the deliberateness of duty and the emotion, buckets full.
I did not need forgiveness or an apology this time.
But thought you had defined a new meaning of 'deliberate' the verb:
de (not to)
liberate (to free)
holding on to a control you'd theoretically discarded.
Funny the thought of de liberating crossed my mind, but this perspective is vivid. Yes I feel like I bonked my head a few times. Thanks for the "there, there". 😅
Just came across this definition of 'loyalty' by R. Steiner. Though I'm not sure I'd be able to follow his full 'anthropology of the spirit' (my label), I think this one is pretty accurate:
“Try to form a really heroic concept of loyalty. What people call loyalty is so evanescent. Try making this your loyalty: You will find that there are fleeting moments in your experience with others when they seem suffused and illumined by the archetypes of their own spirits. And then other periods come--perhaps quite long ones--when their beings are as though clouded over. You can learn to say at such a time: 'The spirit makes me strong. I think of my friend's archetype, which I once glimpsed. No deception, no outer appearance, can ever wrest this image from me.' Struggle ceaselessly to keep this vision. The struggle itself is loyalty. In the effort to be loyal in this sense, human beings come close to their fellow human beings with the strength and in the attitude of a guardian angel.” Read it here: https://substack.com/@maxleyf/note/c-104556899
I loved reading this one. Specially the DIE part. What you call exploration i call curiosity. And i have been thinking about positive curious and negative curious these days, about how when we hit rock bottom, we start looking into the abyss, thinking what's the worse that could come, and I related it with the intention part of your piece
I totally see you relating to this. I think we both experience recursive frustration because we try so fucking hard sometimes. I think the answer in those cases is to let go and let be. Try hard later. 😘
So I started the damned thing (your piece) and loyalty brought me here.
I felt like you ran at full speed, deliberately inside a metal labirynth, in metal walls just big enough for you to run contained, above, below, and on both sides. A natural light was drawing you forward but did not stop you from hitting the ceiling and the walls, to fall, get up and hit something on your way once more, repeatedly.
I did not have to look for an emotion because loyalty has it all, the deliberateness of duty and the emotion, buckets full.
I did not need forgiveness or an apology this time.
But thought you had defined a new meaning of 'deliberate' the verb:
de (not to)
liberate (to free)
holding on to a control you'd theoretically discarded.
Thank for the breakfast treat!
Funny the thought of de liberating crossed my mind, but this perspective is vivid. Yes I feel like I bonked my head a few times. Thanks for the "there, there". 😅
Just came across this definition of 'loyalty' by R. Steiner. Though I'm not sure I'd be able to follow his full 'anthropology of the spirit' (my label), I think this one is pretty accurate:
“Try to form a really heroic concept of loyalty. What people call loyalty is so evanescent. Try making this your loyalty: You will find that there are fleeting moments in your experience with others when they seem suffused and illumined by the archetypes of their own spirits. And then other periods come--perhaps quite long ones--when their beings are as though clouded over. You can learn to say at such a time: 'The spirit makes me strong. I think of my friend's archetype, which I once glimpsed. No deception, no outer appearance, can ever wrest this image from me.' Struggle ceaselessly to keep this vision. The struggle itself is loyalty. In the effort to be loyal in this sense, human beings come close to their fellow human beings with the strength and in the attitude of a guardian angel.” Read it here: https://substack.com/@maxleyf/note/c-104556899
Wow. Beautiful. Thank you.