I can relate to what you say about edited content being hard around the edges. Often I have deep thoughts, but I'm scared to put them on paper as they are. And then they vanish!
That said my first draft is unreadable to anyone but me :)
Very relatable, Natasha! Most times I find what I am trying to say at the very end of writing. Whatever piece I’m working on comes through at first as seemingly detached associations, which in retrospect are not detached at all. To edit while writing is to control the process and control the result and what I write through logic is nothing compared to what I write from the unconscious, free flowing, groupings of associations that miraculously all fit together in the end. Of course, I edit at the end to trim the fat and rearrange and fill in the gaps. But all that happened way after <3
When I'm journaling, I meander through it. It's a struggle to not let this happen in the pieces I hope to publish. Sometimes I just don't fight it. The most important thing for me is writing a piece in one sitting, or if I have to come back to it, it has to be a very short resting period, or I'll never press publish.
I can relate to what you say about edited content being hard around the edges. Often I have deep thoughts, but I'm scared to put them on paper as they are. And then they vanish!
That said my first draft is unreadable to anyone but me :)
I bet they're more readable than you think. Give it a try!
Ah. That will be quite the experiment.
One thing I admire and love about your writing is your authenticity.
What a fantastic, vulnerable self-reflection this is. Seriously great work taking this social and personal risk.
Baller.
Thank you chris. Means a lot.
Very relatable, Natasha! Most times I find what I am trying to say at the very end of writing. Whatever piece I’m working on comes through at first as seemingly detached associations, which in retrospect are not detached at all. To edit while writing is to control the process and control the result and what I write through logic is nothing compared to what I write from the unconscious, free flowing, groupings of associations that miraculously all fit together in the end. Of course, I edit at the end to trim the fat and rearrange and fill in the gaps. But all that happened way after <3
When I'm journaling, I meander through it. It's a struggle to not let this happen in the pieces I hope to publish. Sometimes I just don't fight it. The most important thing for me is writing a piece in one sitting, or if I have to come back to it, it has to be a very short resting period, or I'll never press publish.